Conference Recap😱😱😱

Hey Y’all, as promised in today’s blog I will be recapping what the girls spoke and a little bit of the lesson that the pastors brought about the differences between obsessions and real love. Some of the topics that were discussed during this conference were abstinence, love, obsession, sexual abuse and much more.

The lesson was based on the story of Tamar and Amnon in the book of 2. Samuel 13. Her story is pretty sad in the sense that her own brother committed the crime of abusing her and not restoring her honor by asking marrying her as was supposed to be done in those times. Amnon’s obsession led him to commit an evil crime that destroyed not only his life but the life of Tamar. How can we differentiate what’s obsession and what’s love?

In 1 of Corinthians 13:4-8, the word gives us the definition of real love.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

As youth and adults, we are tested in different areas of our lives. When someone falls in love it’s a moment of overwhelming feelings. You are happy to be in the company of your beloved, to speak about everything and nothing at all. You want to get to know that person, the butterflies feelings start to be felt in your stomach when you think, see, or spend time together with that person. To be in love is to want to protect, honor, persevere, be patient, kind, humble towards the person that you are in love with. Of course, not everything is a color of rainbows; there will be moments when circumstances will make you do mistakes but overall love never fails to conquer the unconquerable. Amnon’s actions don’t speak much of love of but instead of an attraction that became an obsession towards his half-sister; verse 15 of chapter 13 gives us an insight of his feelings.

Then Amnon hated her with intense hatred. In fact, he hated her more than he had loved her. Amnon said to her, “Get up and get out!”

His reaction and action give testimony of his feelings towards his sister. His so-called “Love” became hatred after having committed the act. We have to learn to differentiate between love and obsession. Sometimes the first step towards a relationship starts with attraction, it could either develop to real love or could become something worse as an obsession. It’s almost as bad as the fans of famous artists that proclaim their love for their stars but a lot of times their actions contradict them; in the end, it became an obsession.

At the conference, we spoke about abstinence in saving ourselves for marriage also about purity. Being pure is not only from abstaining from sex outside of marriage but also your thoughts and emotions. Remember that from the “heart speaks the mouth. ” We might be abstaining from sinning with our body but we are sinning in our hearts and mind. We also spoke a little bit of sexual abuse and it’s side effects to the victims. I spoke of my testimony and how being a victim, completely changed my attitude but also almost took me to a path of change in sexual orientation. By God’s mercy, I am the Ana of today without any type of emotional crisis. When we let God work in our lives and let him actually guide us as he wants we will see the change within us and around us. Influences affected me a lot, however, God never let go of me in my moments of doubt, fear, rebellion, and depression.

What can I say, I had much fun at this conference and cannot wait for the male and female conference that will be held in a few months. Learning to wait in God and his promises, not to rush and actually letting him prepare us for the day that we will be wife or husband to the person he has for us.

P. S. God Bless, hope that everyone has a beautiful weekend. I will be writing the blog post of Called with a purpose this weekend, however, it will not be posted until later in the week as I want to go a little deeper in his story but also it will be my mother’s 50th birthday and we are celebrating it with confetti and food🤪😂😂, just kidding. But we will definitely celebrate it so I want to give her all my attention this weekend.

Inspiration Song🕊🕊🕊🕊

God bless and Happy Weekend!!!! I have felt the need to share with you guys a worship song that I hope that the lyrics bring that peace and presence of God. I was reminded of this song through Psalms 91: 4;

“He shall cover you with His feathers, And under His wings you shall take refuge; His truth shall be your shield and buckler.”
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Wings of Dove by Billy Bunster

As the rain spills

From the mountain to the sea

I have poured my life today

Looking for you anxiously

He who loves my soul

Chorus

On wings of pigeon

On wings of cherubs

Go and tell him that I love him

I’m dying

I despair

On wings of pigeon

On Cherub wings

Go and tell him that I love him

That I’m dying

I despair

I want to get your attention

And that you look at me with passion

I have to run to your arms

And take refuge in your lap

Receive my song today

Chorus

On wings of pigeon

On Cherub wings

Go and tell him that I love him

That I for you

For you I die

For you I despair

On wings of pigeon

On Cherub wings

Go and tell him that I love him

That I’m dying

I despair

That I’m dying

I despair

On pigeon wings

On wings of cherubs

Go and tell him that I love him

That I’m dying

And I despair

Hallelujah hallelujah,

Hallelujah hallelujah.

P.S. I want and need this desperation for God daily in my walk with him. I don’t want to feel okay in being comfortable if I can’t feel his presence. I want the opposite of that I need and desire his presence more and deeply.

I’m a Warrior👊🏻👊🏻🗣🗣⚔️🗡

Happy Memorial Day and Blessings to all you. I know it has been about a month since I have posted on my blog but things have been difficult and wonderful. I decided to  be off my blog for a while; as I needed to handle it and become a stronger me.

“If a ruler’s anger rises against you, do not leave your post; calmness can lay great offenses to rest.” Ecclesiastes’s 10: 4

The enemy rose up against me in every way this couple of months and I do not even understand how I’m still standing here. My ministry and spiritual life was extremely attacked; only because of God am I still standing and continue to write in this blog. But after this month of trials; a bigger blessing that I could ever imagined came upon my life and our family. Now that the storm has passed I can see God’s hand move and see his hands guide every action and steps that I took. This month gave me a valuable lesson; where God has put you anyone  that dares will not move you from it.

Isaiah 57:10

” You were wearied with the length of your way, but you did not say, “it is hopeless”; you found new life for your strength, and so you were not faint.”

A few blogs past I shared that we were still praying for my dad to rise up in the ministry and he was still move spiritually dead but during this whole month I have seen God work on my father and his spiritual life. I cannot express the immense joy that we have at this given moment as the head of the household is lifting up and we are seeing his growth and enthusiasm. God is so good; never in my thoughts I imagined the immense joy that I get every time I see my father having that desire to serve God willingly. This battle was given years of fasting and prayers and we are seeing God’s prophetic words come to fruition.

Last year God through my pastor gave me a prophetic word. I had been asking in prayer for a new car as the car I had was an oldie that my parents needed for their job. God in his mercy heard my petition and declared a word letting me know that my car was ready; but it would be given in his time. I continued praying and searching for cars; I had specifically ask him for a car that was semi new as I did not want a new car that would have me deep in debt and low in mileage and price. What I could not see and imagined was that God had the day prepared and the car that was going to be it. The car that God had for me was a really low mileage car with less than  17k miles and for a price of $12k and it’s a car from 2017. It is said that before the blessing you are passed through fire. Maybe I was being tested during this whole month and my two blessings were given because I did not fail; or just maybe it was God’s perfect timing.

My advice to you in this moment if you are being passed through fire is do not leave your post. If God has put you somewhere it’s because he will back you up in every single thing that you do. God is backing up my ministry and this blog and I believe that sooner rather than later  I will be traveling around this world preaching and giving testimony of his glorious mercy and love and support he has had with me and from where he brought me out of.

P.s. I have missed you guys so much😞😞💕💕Come show some love😊🤗

Just as I am.

Just as I am Lord,

With nothing to offer,

but my song.

I  have nothing more to give,

because everything is, yours Lord.

Just as I am Lord,

with nothing to give,

but my heart, I give everything to you.

take me Lord, just as I am.

Accept me as a offering of love,

like a sacrifice pleasing  for your honor,

pleasing fragrance I want to be Lord.

– Jesus Adrian Romero/Artist

This song is in spanish I translated the lyrics because I like many of you forget that God wants us just as how we are without pretense and hiding behind a mask. He loves us flawed because he has seen mine and your deepest darkest place and he still loves you and I. How can we reject that beautiful love, that sees the ugly and still loves the same.

P.S. Yesterday was National Siblings Day and I want to give a shoutout to my brothers and sisters in Christ; thank you for your support and love I really appreciate it💕🌸🌸I’m working on writing the second part of the Dating in Modern Days post💑Stay tuned, thanks for everyone that have read or like that post✅. I’m working on various things right now as I want to take this blog to a different level, maybe make a series of post or start the reviewing of books or I might start doing guest blog post👍👍. Let me know who will like to be a guest blogger on this blog🤷‍♀️. I do not know yet; I’m letting God dictate what he wants to do that’s the best way to go.Shalom🌸💕💕

Dating in Modern Days👫👫💑

Hello everyone this blog post will be a one or two-part blog series it will depend if I cover all the areas of Godly Dating in this modern days. Now I want to let everyone know this post is not written by an experienced dater or married one ; but I have had experiences that I will go into detail later on; so please when you start reading this post go with an open mind.

Dating in modern days have become physical and emotional thing. Adults and teenagers have focused their eyes, heart and mind to relationships and people who bring no fulfillment to their lives. A couple of blog post back I wrote about the Samaritan woman at the well; how Jesus asked for a drink from her and she received a greater blessing after her encounter with the Lord.

One big thing that you have to do before you start dating is look at your relationship with God. Ask yourselves this question; Am I in a place where I can start a relationship that will lead to marriage? Is my heart ready for this next step? Dating is not to be taken lightly; as christian we do not have nor should we want the option of;  I’m going to taste the goods and if I  don’t like it I will leave it. That is not how it works, in the old testament well actually in Genesis 2:18 the Lord said ;

“It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.”

Many mistakes that we make when we start dating is that; we do not go with the expectation of finding that helpmate; we start dating because we are pressured by society, family, and even the church. When God created the helpmate for Adam; he did not decide if she is not good for him he will make him another. Adam and Eve they stayed together until one of them died, through being cast out from Eden, Cain murdering his brother Abel and more.

Proverbs 18:22

He who finds a wife finds what is good
    and receives favor from the Lord.

Dating is not bad; however it has become carnal in the world and inside the church. Who does not miss the days when you were courting someone you were not allowed to hold hands, nor kiss or anything improper that could make you sin; those were the good old days. Dating is not learning each others dreams, learning about each other and just enjoying being young without going to the limit of sinning against God and your body and mind too anymore. Sexual relationship have taken the center of relationship; one thing that I see in youth and adults nowadays they are all over each other; there is a saying ” they knead as if they were bakers.” Which is funny for me and at the same time true; the story of Isaac and Rebecca is pretty astonishing because this woman didn’t let her fiance or betrothed see her without her veil.

and asked the servant, “Who is that man in the field coming to meet us?”

“He is my master,” the servant answered. So she took her veil and covered herself.

Fleeing from sexual immorality in a relationship or even in your own personal life it’s hard for the person when it’s all you ever known and you are trying to do it with your own strength and will. In the first book of Corinthians the Apostle Paul tells the church of Corinthians flee from sexual immorality as you are not just sinning against your body but also the Holy Spirit as our bodies are his temple. When a relationship is just sexual the two people involved are transmitting each other spiritual diseases(demons). Having sexual relations would be more than okay if it’s within the covenant of marriage; as it is proclaimed in the book of Genesis;

God blessed them: “Prosper! Reproduce! Fill Earth! Take charge! Be responsible for fish in the sea and birds in the air, for every living thing that moves on the face of Earth.”

This he told Adam and Eve. Marriage is a covenant between two people who become one and God( Genesis 2:24). He created you to reproduce and find fulfillment inside the marriage. People have sinned in that area since forever and will continue to if they don’t decide to leave that behind and be a new creature in Christ.

P.S. I will this blog post until here, I will be posting part 2 later in the week. Married and single people do comment down below 👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻and let me know your thoughts and suggestion; I would love some feedback💕.I appreciate the love and support from every single one of you. Shalom🌸🌸🌸

Broken Prayers🌺🌸

What do you do when you feel like there is no answer?

When you see the ugliness of your mistakes and iniquities facing you everyday?

When you can’t speak up because you are afraid of the judgement that will come down on you?

You want my tears, every messy word
Every scar and every fear
You want all I have
With no holding back
When I’m hurt, at my worst
You meet me there
‘Cause you see the beauty
In my broken prayers
In my broken prayers

– Broken Prayers (Riley Clemmons)

Life is beauty when everything is squeaky clean, in order and polished that when people see us the only see that side but never what’s underneath. A lot of days I feel like the broken and lost child that I was several years ago…and my prayers feel like they fall in deaf ears. I have constant moment of irrational fear where I feel like my burdens and my insecurities need to be bottled up. Because I feel the need to present a facade of togetherness where I just want to run to a cliff and scream and scream until all that I feel can be exposed into existence. I’m the seasoned warrior that wants to give up and hide in a cave and never come out.

There is no shadow you won’t light up

Mountain you won’t climb up, coming after me

there is no wall, you won’t kick down,

lie you won’t tear down, coming after me.

-Reckless love(Passion)

What do you do when you don’t feel the breeze or hear the voice of your beloved. And if in the deepest part of your soul you wish for that voice to say I’m here but you can’t hear nor can see. Beauty that you have never seen but you have believed that lived and died in the cross.  My shackles and chains have been freed and I’m proof that grace and love can win.If my faith were like the mustard seed that would grow and grow. Maybe what I’m missing is learning to love myself through my insecurities, my ups and down that same way you love me.

P. S. I hope everyone had a wonderful Easter and that from this Easter you are resurrected as a new you just as Jesus was resurrected. Shalom💕💕I will be posting my dating post this week stay tuned and show some love down below👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻 I will be waiting for the comments on what everyone did this Easter; we celebrate Easter in a quiet way 💕💕God Bless & Love you all💕💕 thank you for supporting this ministry🌸

Where is your Resurrection?

1.Kings 17:14

For this is what the Lord, the God of Israel, says: ‘The jar of flour will not be used up and the jug of oil will not run dry until the day the Lord sends rain on the land.’”

 

As I was reading the two books of Kings for my preaching for youth service on friday. I came upon  the meetings of the prophets Elijah and Elisha with two non Israelites women that helped them in times when they needed it without asking for anything in return. What God brought to my attention was that these two women gave instead of asked and because of their actions God blessed them. And  he blessed them abundantly  one with nourishment for her and her child her oil and flour never did run dry or was used up during  the famine in the land while the other one was given the blessing of being a mother after so many years. God tried these two men and women, he tried their faith. One of the various things I found in common in the two stories was that they knew that Elijah and Elisha were men of God.

2 Kings 4:16

And he said, “At this season, about this time next year, you shall embrace a son.” And she said, “No, my lord, O man of God; do not lie to your servant.”

Elijah and Elisha were prophets that God used tremendously in the old testament but they weren’t exempt from God testing their faith also. In verse 20 of 1. Kings 17, Elijah asks a question to God why had God brought tragedy to this woman’s home after helping him and it says that he laid on the child three times and cried out (” Lord my
God, let this boy’s life return to him.” 1. Kings 17:21) and God answered the cry and gave life back to the child. Same thing happened in the book of 2. Kings 4, Elisha not knowing what was happening in the house of the Shunammite meets her and he finds out what has happened to her child; he then sends his servant to lay his staff on the child and when the staff does not work he goes and lay on the child and God heard his cry.

The significance of them laying on the children and putting the hands to hands, mouth to mouth and eyes to eyes was them crying out to God to healed the children. They were calling out God to come and do the miracles of giving life as he is the only one that can do it. But God tested their faith because it was not the staff nor just being used by God but that if it’s on the will of God he can resurrect anyone from death. As we have for example Lazarus and even Jesus Christ.

The two mothers of the child’s they were blessed and they saw the blessing come to life but their hearts were not on the Lord. Their eyesight was not on the Lord; they were living from the blessing but did they actually believe in God.? From the response one gave I do not think so; after the miracle she told the prophet (” Now I know you are a man of God and that the word of the Lord from your mouth is the truth.” 1. Kings 17:24.)

Was there a resurrection in their life that was more than physical? Yes there was they were left knowing that there is a God that can take and give life back and that overpasses the firmament of this earth. They saw the miracles that happened through two men of God by the Lord. And they believed instead of seeing the miracles but not believing in God. God tested both this two women and two of his prophets for their faith to become stronger during the adversities of life. Now they were change but what about you; so my question to you is, Where is your Resurrection?

P.S. It’s Semana Santa!! which means Holy week; I don’t know if yet if I will be posting something related to it, as many bloggers do that during this week. My blog post about dating is in a rough draft at this moment so I think by early next week or the end of this week I will be posting it. Let this week and every single day afterward bring you joy and reconciliation with the Lord. Let God bring a change into your  life; open yourself to the things that you cannot see but that are waiting for you.

Verse of the Day💕🗣🗣💗

Let’s ask ourselves if we are actually seeking and asking for this💕💕💕 “it’s better to be one day in your courts than thousands out of it”-Psalms 84:10🗣🗣

My Praise🙌🏻🙌🏻🎼🎼🗣🗣💕💕

Then Moses said, “I pray You, show me Your glory!”

How many of us have said this to God many times? well I have too many to count. But what is more shocking to me it’s the boldness in which Moses talks to God.  From the first meeting with God he was even afraid to look and now he demands from the Lord; the transition has been a complete change of attitude.

In innocence, anger and rebellion I have demanded from God to show himself in various ways in my life. When I was younger when I went to sunday school I used to daydream of seeing God and how he looks like but  as I got older  I was filled with pain and hate; I demanded from him what I thought I needed to see or experience to let go of the anger, hatred and hurt that was in my heart.

His face shines brighter than the sun
His grace as boundless as His love
He reigns with healing in His wings
The King above all kings
The greatest One of all

What I could not see nor grasp was that I could feel his glory in just letting him in; in praising him with all my heart. I have learned that it’s not necessary to physically see his glory to feel as we are one special spiritual being but that obeying his commands and living in the way that he wants we can feel it. Moses demanded from God but he was a man who obeyed God’s command in retrieving his people from Egypt. And even though he grew tired of the people constantly whining for no reason he stuck; he obeyed God’s command and he was able to fulfill one of his desires which was seeing God’s presence not in full but just the back.

I’m awed by Your beauty, lost in Your eyes
I long to walk in Your presence like Jesus did
Your glory surrounds me and I’m overwhelmed
I’m not afraid
I’m not afraid

Maybe your desire is the same as it was mine; but have you asked yourself if it really it’s God’s glory you wish to see? or you want to feel as if you are worth? My demands came from a place of hurt and anger and of feeling unworthy . I had to actively search and let go for me to experience just the feeling of his glory when I praised or prayed. I had to break those chain that had me tied and would not let go of me. I’m actively searching but it’s not with a take for no answers desire to see him but instead to feel him.

P.S.  I have decided to post about Godly Dating➕💑👫 but I first have to do my research in the bible and more so it won’t be instant. I like to be through so hang on to it I promise I will do it.  You guys don’t know what a blessing it is for me to be able to write for you guys and speaking from the bottom of my heart; Thank you💕💕I have seen growth in my blog; thank you to the ones that have stuck with me since the beginning and the ones that have gotten on board this train during the trajectory. Shalom💕💗💗💕✨✨

Devotional💗🌙🌙🌙

“Then he said to me, “This is the word of the Lord to Zerubbabel: Not by might, nor by power, but by my Spirit, says the Lord of hosts.”

How many times has the Lord told me this? I will answer too many to remember. I have always been a bit headstrong  and I’m a lot of the time set in ways; but when the Lord touches me and speaks to me it brings me to my knees.

A lot of times my heart or my mind lead the decision that I take and that has been something I have been working on. Because just as this verse says it’s not by might, nor by power but by God’s spirit. I’m not going to lie and not say that a lot of times it’s impossible to listen to God’s voice in the midst of it all.

“The LORD.’ And I will be gracious to whom I will be gracious, and will show mercy on whom I will show mercy.”

When I look inside my life and I see a long road that still needs construction, repairs but most of all LOVE. My heart and mind might deceive me; however God never does.

P.S. How was everyone’s weekend?? Mine was pretty restful. I’m thinking of doing a series of post about Godly dating➕👫💑Let me know what you think about that.. Shalom💗💕🌙